mercies in diguise

I'm hurting today. I'm feeling even more frustrated and just want to 'get the show on the road' and get back to treatments. Not much to say today - just listening to 'Blessings' by Laura Story and trying to remember this has all got to be for a reason and part of God's plan... even if it makes no sense to me now, and maybe never will.

We pray for blessings, we pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep  
We pray for healing, for prosperity  
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
All the while You hear each spoken need  
Yet love is way too much to give us lesser things

'Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears?  
What if a thousand sleepless nights  
Are what it takes to know You're near?
What if trials of this life  
Are Your mercies in disguise?

We pray for wisdom, Your voice to hear
We cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt Your goodness, we doubt Your love  
As if every promise from Your Word is not enough  
And all the while You hear each desperate plea
And long that we'd have faith to believe

'Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears?  
And what if a thousand sleepless nights  
Are what it takes to know You're near?  
And what if trials of this life  
Are Your mercies in disguise?

When friends betray us, when darkness seems to win
We know that pain reminds this heart
That this is not, this is not our home  
It's not our home

'Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops  
What if Your healing comes through tears?
And what if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You're near?
What if my greatest disappointments
Or the aching of this life  
Is the revealing of a greater thirst  
This world can't satisfy?
And what if trials of this life  
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights  
Are Your mercies in disguise?