Tuesday, May 15, 2012

Emotionally Drained

The past couple months have been very difficult. I have been in and out of the hospital for cysts and pain. The good news is I finally got rid of the cyst and we are now in the middle of another (and our last) treatment cycle before Matt gets out of the military. In fact, our doctors have already informed us that we should be considering IVF. We've already done over $30,000 worth of treatment. Thank God for our insurance. I don't know what we will do when we no longer have it. I have an appointment tomorrow morning to check labs and follicle growth. We are hoping for good news and if all goes well IUI should be Friday I think. As far a medications go, I am on dexamethasone, femara, gonal-f injections, and the ovidrel trigger shot. I am a nervous wreck. There is a lot of pressure riding on this IUI, but I am doing my best to relax. My heart is so heavy right now though. Mother's Day was this past weekend and it was rough for me. Matt and I went out of town and go away which was nice. I was also shocked at the amount of people who reached out to me over that day and let me know they were thinking of me. It meant a lot to be remembered. I have been doing pretty well, but today I am emotional. I am being such a girl! (lol). I just can't handle any more baby news right now. I have been handling pregnancy announcements and gender reveals and births the best I can, but for some reason it is all catching up to me today. It is probably all the hormones I've got running through me! Anyway, that is the update for the time being. Hopefully tomorrow will bring some good news and peace of mind. I really want a miracle.

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